Oh well this is a great reflection and honestly, so resonant. For me it’s looking through journals from 10 years ago and thinking, “really? We still on this same sh$t?” 😂 What I’ve come to realize is basically what you said, it’s not *exactly* the same sh$t, because now the context is at a different level. If I imagine my life as a growth spiral, the view might look the same, but it’s from a little higher up angle, you know?
And if I may offer a little neuroscience-y reframe, feeling unpleasant or having unwelcome emotions isn’t necessarily a sign that anything is wrong with you. It might just mean that you’re doing something new, or something that’s difficult; anything your brain is interpreting as “oh, this is taking more energy than usual and I don’t know how to predict the best outcome.”
So excited to hear about your directing project, btw! Way to go!! ✨💪🏻
Sometimes it is hard to see for self the progress one has made . It is more important to see how far have you come since started rather than how close you are to the destination. We all are work in progress and as long as we are moving , we are good . Water that flows is a stream and is good but not the stagnant water .
I appreciate the honesty in this reflection. I’ve definitely felt the same way! It’s so easy too to look back and feel like everything in tech was easy, breezy and well paid. I think this is also the challenge with doing something new and being a beginner again. In some ways, as soon as we’re comfortable, we’ll look for the next opportunity to be a beginner again. Just to say that maybe the insecurity is destined to be there because once you become confident, we are ready to look for the next challenge. You’re doing big things now and I do hope you’re appreciating how much you’ve already done!
me too man, me too
i have thoughts of going back to my old self as well
Oh well this is a great reflection and honestly, so resonant. For me it’s looking through journals from 10 years ago and thinking, “really? We still on this same sh$t?” 😂 What I’ve come to realize is basically what you said, it’s not *exactly* the same sh$t, because now the context is at a different level. If I imagine my life as a growth spiral, the view might look the same, but it’s from a little higher up angle, you know?
And if I may offer a little neuroscience-y reframe, feeling unpleasant or having unwelcome emotions isn’t necessarily a sign that anything is wrong with you. It might just mean that you’re doing something new, or something that’s difficult; anything your brain is interpreting as “oh, this is taking more energy than usual and I don’t know how to predict the best outcome.”
So excited to hear about your directing project, btw! Way to go!! ✨💪🏻
Sometimes it is hard to see for self the progress one has made . It is more important to see how far have you come since started rather than how close you are to the destination. We all are work in progress and as long as we are moving , we are good . Water that flows is a stream and is good but not the stagnant water .
Very proud of you always .
I appreciate the honesty in this reflection. I’ve definitely felt the same way! It’s so easy too to look back and feel like everything in tech was easy, breezy and well paid. I think this is also the challenge with doing something new and being a beginner again. In some ways, as soon as we’re comfortable, we’ll look for the next opportunity to be a beginner again. Just to say that maybe the insecurity is destined to be there because once you become confident, we are ready to look for the next challenge. You’re doing big things now and I do hope you’re appreciating how much you’ve already done!